~ Dolphins of the Deep Blue ~

Friday, July 20, 2007

BOO!

ok so i guess i have been feeling really weird these few days. i'm having extreme mood swings again! yeh, it sucks. whatever i do, be it going crazy in class, quarrelling with friends....... i still know that my heart is feeling the same way. its a feeling that is indescribable. at this rate i'm going, i'll do really badly for my O levels. i have not started studying for any subject. i'm starting to panic but i'm not doing anything to ease that feeling. alright, i HAVE to start. i really have to. ok i have to help myself, no one can help me without the support of me, myself and I!
alright, my mind is currently blank and my heart is sinking. its as though i have to hold on to it, if not it may just drop all the way to the floor. it has this sharp pain also whenever it gets "attacked". yeh, i hope this feeling will go away soon. it was so hard for me to smile. this is bad, because my smile is the one that brings me joy and happiness plus onfidence. ok all i can say now is, i can't cheer up because my heart has already sank, not sinking but sank. alright, smile everyone.

~if only i could~

---------------------JJ TAN H.O.W in the W.O.W.----------------------

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Friday, July 13, 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!

yay! so today is a very special day for me! haha, weeeee. thanks a lot to all my friends, they gave me so many presents! i felt so loved! haha, yeh thanks a lot to yuen ying, li jia (licky), kai boon, chia pei, joey, angelina, samantha tan, dorothy, my W.O.W ppl ( charmaine tay, heda, vicki, heidi foo, zaharah, zakiah, Lia, gillian, allyson, gabrielle, filzah and charmaine tan ), my dearest ex-cos ( soek khern, wei zhen, victoria, sanam, alicia, crystal, cheryl ng, andrea tjoe and priscilla ), my class 4/4, SNORMPITLE ( cassandra, soek khern and alicia ), my BUDDY and also not forgetting my mummy! yeh, oh yes and also thank you to all those who wrote me small little notes and wishing me happy birthday! oh you know, my birthday is the same as serene! haha, thanks a lot for the present! happy birthday to you! today is such a memorable day! i guess its my best birthday ever!!! thanks a lot buddy especially! what a birthday today! so interesting! haha, weeeeeeeee. i feel so happy! yeh so its friday the 13th, but its a lucky day and a happy day for me! haha, i just can't stop smiling today! i went cycling with buddy! weeeeeeee, so fun!
i laughed so much in class! weeee, esp at ash and licky! haha, gym with sharon! so fun! i love the trackmill! we ran only 7 mins plus. haha, but its still fun! weeeeeee! that's about today. my wonderful birthday!

~happy birthday~

-----------------JJ Tan H.O.W in the W.O.W ---------------------

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