Tuesday, January 30, 2007
BOO!
hey, yesterday and today was such a meaningful day for me! i had retreat, it was really fun and touching and i cried so much! ha ha, the retreat made me realised how selfish i was while i was dealing with friendship problems and how i took everything for granted. yeh, i also realised how improtant my family and friends are to me, how they all affect my life, how they make a difference in me. i really wanna thank all my friends especially my close friends, you know who you are, i really want all of you to know how grateful i am to all the things that you all have done for me. i really am glad to be in KC to know all of you, i know i am always very loud and talkaitve and demanding and always scolding everyone, but deep down inside, i really do care about all of you. i really want to be a part of your lives. yeh, i want to cheer all of you up, make you all happy and encourage all of you.yeh, whatever it is, i just want to express my sincere thanks to all of you and my sincere apology too!
Have you ever thought of your purpose in life? have you ever thought of why we always have to go through so many stages in life? Life is made up of different stages, whenever we end a stage, we must know that that marks to start of the new stage. If we keep living int the past, we will never be able to improve, we will never be able be happy, we will never ever be satisfied. Don't you think we should take some time out for ourselves and really think about ourselves? It is true that we should put others before oursleves, but don't you think the most impt person in your life is you yourself? without our-self, we will not be able to even serve others. I don't think we should always think about what other feels or react, because sometimes the one suffering is us, not the others. think about others, but also think about yourself, because most importantly, we are the ones to walk through the journey of life. It will be good to think over these things, maybe before you sleep? this may help you to understand what is " tommorow will be a better day ".
~Believe in yourself~
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Friday, January 26, 2007
BOO!
hey hey hey! ha ha, ok all i had to say about today is shit! ha ha, ok sorry lah but its true. yeh, i don't know what is the thing that made me feel so shitty, but i'm really angry because it took away my happy mood. ahhhh, no way, i'm going to get my happiness back! i don't want to be sad, angry, stress... i just want to be simple and happy! yeh, thanks to all the songs i had, plus those NEW ones, ha ha, released all my stress and i'm fine now! ha ha, cool, i 'm glad i had those songs to save me! ha ha, especially the "saving me" song, loved it! i'm starting to like nickelback's songs, ha ha, wow, non jap ah. ha ha, its nice, i like their music. ha ha, yeh, anyway thanks. ha ha, core lit was fun as usual, ha ha, elect. geog too, ha ha, only me and mrs k understand lame jokes! ha ha, yeh, so i kept laughing at the jokes lah, ha ha, only i understand! ( but was i really laughing? like for real? am i really that happy? is that my true laughter? ) yeh, coolness. oh ya, yesterday i played some around the world and OCEANs in 80 ways, ha ha. so lame lah, i'm drowning! ha ha, ok ok. but it was fun, ha ha. yeh.
I thought the problems were settled? ahhhh, hate it, its like coming back, i guess it will go away soon, i'm not feeling it now. yeh, i think WE just have to play with them lah, hai, just ren ! ha ha, we can do it, go go go! ha ha, yeh, but i know we know we don't like it, ha ha, but that's life lah, hai. cheer up! ha ha!
Ok, everyone is good at something, so please do not demoralize yourself!!! WAKE UP WAKE UP! everyone will have their good points and bad points! so PLEASE do not look down on yourself!!!
yeh, guess that's my day, but i'm cheered up already, thanks a lot/little! ha ha
~what is friendship~
---------------------- JJ Tan H.O.W in the W.O.W -----------------------
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Tuesday, January 23, 2007
BOO!
hey everyone, i think i'm getting happier and happier each day, yay! That's a very good thing! i guess its because a lot of my internal problems had been solved and i'm starting to love my class, 4/4! ha ha, i'm laughing in class everyday, which is a good sign, it means that i'm happy! Thank you 4/4! i know i did a lot of stupid and lame things in class, but i'm glad that you all did not ignore me or think that i'm weird, ha ha. you all joined in the fun! ha ha, that's what i call an united class! ha ha, i'm suddenly so happy to be in 4/4! ha ha.
thanks to my BUDDY too! thanks for your non-stop constipated laugh during core lit and tjoe's non-stop funny expressions and comments! ha ha, i love core lit lessons, its so fun, the three of us will be laughing like nobody's business, ha ha! thanks thanks!
oh yes and thanks to your MANY food, ha ha. i eat a lot lah, must walk from eunos mrt. ha ha, i'm always eating my chang kee kee whenever i go for tuition! ha ha, oh yes, tuition another laughing seesion, ha ha, all of us will be so noisy and crapping all the way ! ha ha, noisy bunch of ppl. ha ha, but its super fun lah. ha ha.
yeh, thank you a lot of ppl, buddy, ex-cos, cells, suzy, ballet friends, tuition friends, juniors, the ppl who gave me darkness, my welfare com, seniors, sec 4 and 5 councillors, 4/4 classmates, and many more... thank you for making me so happy and letting me enjoy every single second i have spent! haha, i'm so glad to be happy! all of you too ok, especially you and you! ha ha, shall not mention names, ha ha, but i guess you and you know! ha ha!
i want to go for camp too! i don't want to study, i want to play! haha, ok i have to study, O level year, whooo~ cannot play anymore! boo hoo, anyway, i'll strive to do my best amd also not stress up myself! go! go! go!
~what is more important than being happy~
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Tuesday, January 16, 2007
HEY!
bad day today! alright not totally bad, but maybe only at the later part of the day. i reached school super early today, i think around 6.40 to 6.45. ya, and ok the awkward feeling again but i guess we have to settle it among ourselves. i think we can, don't be too troubled ok, stay happy.
yeh, so the first half of the day was happy, happy and more happy. then comes the assembly part, ahhhh. so irritating!!! ahhhh, we did so much ok, we rushed the girls, we shouted at them, we scolded them and yet she said," STUDENT COUNCILLORS, YOU ARE OF NO HELP!" like, what? we did so so much ok. ahhhh, i was so angry that i shivered in anger and i broke down after that lah. ok shall not go into details about it. yeh, so remedial and then support group. after that i went home and i just started thinking about everything that happened and all the WHYs started haunting my brain. ahhh, then i started recalling the past 3 years in kc. i really miss the time we spent together, the childish things we do together, the scoldings, all the prefect stuffs, all the SC stuffs,1/5, 2/5, 3/4, and many other stuffs. i can't help but miss the past, i know i have to move on, but right now there is so many problems and i feel so mixed up. my mind is in a mess sometimes and i just can't think. its nice reminiscing the past, but i just couldn't control my tears, so i started crying. ahhh, such a sad day today. ok anyway i also don't know what i'm typing, ha ha. yeh, anyway i wanna thank all those who cheered me up today and also those who comforted me! i really feel better now, thank you so much!
~reminiscing the good memories~
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Monday, January 15, 2007
BOO!
ok, i'm blogging due to boredom. ok, many things are troubling me lah, but i guess its sort of settled? i don't know, i have to try out first! thanks a lot to ppl who enlightened me and YOU too. ha ha, yeh. i guess i think too much lah, i should just let go and not care about it. *sigh* but i don't seem to be able to do that. whatever it is, i'll lead a happy life. i'm happiliy pitching ppl today, so if you got pitched, GOOD FOR YOU! ha ha, that shall be the way i greet you all, ha ha, ok just kidding. yeh, anyway, thanks to those who make me happy and cheer me up, ha ha, i guess i need to manage my time well so that my "wasting time" will not affect my study and homework time. yeh, ha ha, Pathetic, Very Pathetic and Very Very Pathetic. ha ha!
~ i shall be happy~
----------------- JJ Tan H.O.W in the W.O.W ------------------
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Friday, January 12, 2007
BOOO!
hello everyone, today is a very interesting day! ha ha, met early in school to get blazer then met the councillors and things was very mess up. BUT, we all adapted and went with the flow! special thanks to councillors in charge of sec 4 classes, you all did great, the flow was very good and you all were alert after i told you all the last min plan. well done! i was so proud of you all! plus the councillors at the sec 3 levels too, good job, i saw you all doing great! then it was mass, the father is so cool ok, he not only talk sense into us students, he also did to the teachers! wow, ha ha. its was a fun one, until the moment we sang our last song "One Family". i have no idea why my tear glands activated, but i think its because i saw sk's eyes filled with tears. i couldn't help back think back about the wonderful time we all went through together, especially FF. plus all the crappy times, i really just couldn't control my tears, so it just flowed down. Boo Hoo~ the best part is, we were on stage, so the whole school kind of saw me and sk cry. ha ha, but it was really memorable. thanks a lot to wei wei and tjoe for comforting me, i really felt very touched! Last year in KC, ahhh, i'll miss everything in KC! my friends especially and SC, PB too! so sad! then was the prize giving and installation of cca leaders and TRAINEES! ha ha, i was so excited for them, i don't know why. ha ha, 2 years already, since i first went up to get my trainee badge. i was so excited and worried then, excited because its my first time and worried for my uniform and my posture. i felt so.... i don't know, its so fast, time really flies man. ha ha, so i guess i was even more excited than the trainees! ha ha. yeh then we had reception, thanks to Leslie, Celeste and Zaharah for letting me help you all put on your badge, i was really honoured! ha ha, it sure did make my day! yes then ex cos went to councillor's room and did our usual thing. ha ha finally, its lesson time, boring and fun too lah, nothing much actually except for the laughing gas produced by sk. ha ha.
SO, after school is the best part. ha ha, i was suppose to meet CK/CELLS at 'MYAMMAR' but i got caught up with something so i was late. yeh i was suppose to do research in the library but it turned out to be a laughing seesion in the canteen. ha ha, thanks to who? ANNE KWA, HEIDI FOO, GRACE CHEAH, CELESTE KWAN, NURUL JANNAH and also FILZAH AZIZ!!! i had lunch with them and we were laughing away at everything lah. ha ha, that CELL complained so much about me eating so slowly and the rest were like making me laugh, so how am i suppose to eat fast when all of you are making me laugh? ha ha, yeh then ANNE KWA and HEIDI FOO went i don't know where and went they come back, they treated me with some "wonderful" darkness. wow, thanks ah, interchage the hand somemore. plus, i haven't finish eating my food. then guess what, ALL FIVE OF THEM ganged up to bully me! ahhhh, i was not only being "trapped in darkness" but also being tickled!!! ahhh, can you believe it, 5 JUNIORS against 1 SENIOR! so sad ok, i felt like i was being "raped" ha ha. AND, they pulled out my rubber band! ahhhh, so that was only the intro to the laughing seesion. ok, i must say, i was trying super hard to fight back ok, but 1 against 5 very tiring you know! ahhhh, haha, yeh then filzah had to leave so we said bye. ha ha, then we started singing that bumble bee song and other stupid fun songs lah, oh oh and the dum dum di li di li ? ha ha, ya. that was super fun then it can this thinking game which was super lame and fun, ha ha, CELL is so so so so so so so so so so so so so slow!!! ha ha, poor thing ah, cannot catch anything. ha ha, plus we made it so obvious ok, even nurul also can catch it on the spot lah. ha ha. yeh and ANNE KWA started doing some funny BBC and CNA news reporting, ha ha, that was damn hilarious, ha ha we were laughing our heads off ok. ha ha, my cheek and stomach hurt so much. ha ha, i guess i already produced 1 litre of laughing gas! ha ha, yeh then comes the second " dark " session! ahhhhhh, it was so horrible, this time round i was standing up and i was really moving ok, like trying to " untangle myself from all the HANDS! " ha ha. yeh then this CELL lah go and mess up my hair, ahhhh, my precious hair. i literally look like a mad woman ok and nobody came to my rescue! ahhhhh, i was all alone ok. then they all lah, took my wallet and hid it. i knew it was them lah. ha ha, so i went to check their bags, ha ha and ANNE KWA had to go home, so i ran to her to ask if she had my wallet and she said no, ahhhh. so nvm, then we said bye. so i went to take HEIDI FOO's bag and check, it was not there, ahhh. guess who's bag is it in? a super obvious answer lah, CELESTE KWAN! ahhhh, stupid. yeh, so i threatened to throw GRACE CHEAH's bag and that CELL went to take my bag. ha ha then we had the " bag threatening " game. ha ha, it was another hilarious one, we made so much noise in the foyer ok, ha ha, then we kept running around. ha ha, yeh. it was so fun. ha ha, then finally CELL and I 'checked' each others bag, ha ha, and i found like some stuff. ha ha, anyway that part was just for fun lah, plus we were so tired after running around the foyer. ha ha. yeh then after some short relax chat, we went home. ha ha, yeh, we went home at 5.30! ha ha, so we played from 3 to 5.30! ha ha, cool. yeh, anyway i'm still sad that i'm bullied by 5 JUNIORS, but it sure was fun. thanks anyway for the fun and 'fun'. you all will DIE in the next meeting!ha ha. i felt bad lah, i didn't help do the DC files, so sorry wei wei and all.
yeh then i had to relieve my teacher's class at 7.15 all the way to 9.30. babe class was good, so happy. i thought i did a good job, so it kinds of motivated me for tml. ha ha, good. yeh and after that is finally homw sweet home. yeh, such a fun day and thankful day. ok i must really say a big thank you to all the people that made my day and made me 'blind', ha ha, i really had an enjoyable day!
~Don't stop smiling~
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Monday, January 01, 2007
Happy New Year!!!
ha ha, its 2007 already, that's real fast! i feel so happy now, it feels as if all my problems from 2006 has been thrown away! i'm glad i'm happy, plus i'm smiling to myself now! i'm so happy to be with my mum, i treasure every moment with her, i don't know why i'm so positive now, i guess its maturity. i think i learn a lot and experience a lot, therefore i'm not as childish as last time. I am really happy to have all my friends around me, my mum beside me, J-POP all over me, ha ha. i guess i change in just that one day, from the last day of 2006 to the first day of 2007. i didn't know how much everyone care about me until that min when it turned to 2007. i really wanna thank you all for always being there for me, supporting me, tolerating me and also correcting me. i guess i shouldn't think so much, my previous post was really ~bleah~, i'm fine now. i'm so glad to have such a lovely mum who cares so much about me, i really think i'm very lucky to have such a caring mum! thanks to my friends, especially the ex-cos : SK for always being there for me when i'm down, sharing your thoughts and all, Ally for always having the same feeling and thoughts as me, Cheryl ng for always giving me great advice and being such a wonderful friend, Wei Zhen for always making me happy and warm, Tjoe for being my anime friend and getting high over get beckers, Victoria for always sharing love about ballet and also helping me for english especially during KC circuit, Crystal for always doing silly stuffs and making all of us laugh, Sanam for sharing thoughts about drama and teasing each other and Pris for sharing korean stuff with me. i wanna thank a lot of people, my classmates, SC juniors and seniors and even trainees, my ballet friends especially for such a wonderful holiday, some teachers and many many more. thank you for making a difference in my life, without all of you, my lameness won't work. ha ha, i'm really very happy now, so happy that i can cry, ha ha. WOW. yes yes, thanks to my welfare committee too, thank you for supporting me and being so united, so proud of all of you! I love you all so so much!!!
2007, a great year ahead, i must not waste my last year in KC!!!
~All i want to say, is a sincere "Thank You"~
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