Monday, April 30, 2007
HEY!
yo! i'm so happy now! ha ha, just came back from ballet. yay! class was cool today and i perspired so so so much that my leotard and tights were all wet! my towel too! ha ha, i started perspiring to minute my teacher ask us to join the juniors with allegro! ha ha, yay! i'm so satisfied with today's class, i really worked and body! so much better than the class on saturday! ha ha, we did so many jumps today, ok not really a lot lah. ha ha, oh oh oh my calf muscle cramped up will stretching! oh my, so pain lah, i'm aching at my calf from saturday. yeh, ha ha, just tense up itself and i have no choice but to let go. ha ha. i'm so happy with my right doubles today! ha ha, basically i'm just too happy to be able to dance again! i love advance foundation work! it just kills you and make you do nothing else but work your body! yay, now i have my own class every monday, so monday will now be my fav day? ha ha.
oh today's chinese paper suck lah. ha ha, i didn't understand passage B and i had to read it again despite reading so so slowly. ha ha, yeh, summary was a killer lah. ha ha, i think my HCL paper was so much worse than my english paper! oh my, that shouldn't be the case. ha ha. i'm not really sad over it, yeh. ha ha, oh and i think my zuo wen was rubbish. ha ha, i'm going to fail my paper and get last in class again! ha ha, i don't think anyone can beat my record. ha ha, oh but i'm happy that i managed my time well enough to be able to start on my summary. ha ha.
oh yeh, all the best for mid years my friends! sk, cass, ally, ex-cos, W.O.W members :), ballet friends, B2 ( said relunctantly) ha ha, ok kidding, sec 4/4 and to all my other friends. yeh, everyone! ha ha.
woooooo, last year in kc, so i shall make full use of the time i have with the school. i guess i have found that happiness while i was dancing today! that happiness that everyone is pursuing for! yeh.
" you can't change the environment to complement yourself, you can only change yourself to adapt to the environment!" ----- rmb that yeh, good for you! yes yes A LITTLE BIT OF PAIN IS GOOD FOR YOU!
~YAY~
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Sunday, April 22, 2007
HEY
If only i'm a bird, i'll fly away from my sorrows. If only i'm a tree, i'll stay put forever, never leaving what i always treasured. If only i'm a cloud, i'll be able to cry when i wish to. If only i'm a key, i'll be able to unlock eveyone's heart. If only i'm a mountain, i'll be so strong that i can go through any difficulties. If only i'm a baby kangaroo, i'll always be able to stick to my mum. If only i'm a drop of tear, i'll be able to disappear as quick as i can. If only i'm a teddy bear, i'll be able to be cuddled and loved by every single soul. If only i'm a blanket, i'll be able to make others feel warm. If only i'm the sun, i'll be bright and happy everyday. If only i'm a basketball. i'll be able to score that goal that i want. If only i'm who i am before, i'll be much simpler and happier.
Sometimes its hard not to live in denial, the more you deny the more you lie to yourself, sometimes will make you feel a little happier. but, it will only be for that split second. What have i done to my life for me to feel this way? What have i done to make things become worse? What have i done to cause all the problems i face? I have so much unanswered question to ask. I never once did something to make myself or the people around me proud of. I never once stop to think about others, even though i thought i did. I just felt like crying, i don't know why. I guess i have lost the bubbly and cheerful me. I miss my grandma, even though she passed away a long time ago. I miss the times i talk and laugh with my mum, i miss the times when i was with snormpitle, i miss so many things. I feel like going for a run, run and feel the wind blow away my stress, my sorrows, my troubles, my fears and leave me only with happiness. What more, that's what we all are pursuing for. Ballet, my passion, i hope i can always dance. that's the time when i can really free my mind and dance my heart out. I love space, if only a have I big wide space under the sun, i'll dance to an endless song. I like to gaze and admire the blue sky. i will so comforted everytime i am alone looking at the sky. I love myself, but i hate what i've done to change myself. I hope to be as innocent again, I hope to be the real me, I hope I hope I hope.
~If only...~
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Wednesday, April 18, 2007
HEY!!!
I'm currently suffering from depression! ha ha, feeling the extremes! rahhh--- ha ha, ok i think i'm too stress? but that shouldn't be the case because i am so slack? ha ha, anyway, thanks to that YY always make me laugh during chinese and tuition. especially today when we are heading home from tuition, ha ha, so funny lah! caused me to..... ha ha, shall not say. ok, i think we kind of embarrassed ourselves with that "shake it" song. ha ha, i kept controlling my laughter in the bus ok, ha ha, i can't laugh, if not ppl will think that i'm crazy.If i were to describe my day by plotting a graph, it will be like the roller coaster you sit in TOKYO DISNEYLAND!!! ha ha. tuition was fun, sat with dorothy and we laugh our ass off! ha ha, oh and i keep saying "lame shit" each time dotty say something lame. ha ha, here's another interesting conversation in tuition,
ME: eh, can let me see your answer?
DOT: who say you can see?
ME: tsk tsk. pass me the biscuit, i wanna eat.
*dotty pass me the biscuit and we each took one*
ME: eh, your mouth got hole ah, eat until like that? how to do the qn ah?
DOT: *use her hand cover* don't let you see, ha ha ha!
ME: lame shit lah!
*both of us burst out laughing*
DOT: the shit can walk!
ME: so you mean your shit walk out of the toilet bowl? no wonder your toilet so dirty!
*everyone burst out laughing*
ha ha, oh my gosh, its damn funny lah, plus YY's nonsense, ha ha, made tuition so fun and happy today. ha ha, ok ok tmr shall be a happy day too! ha ha, thanks a lot for all the laughter my friends!
~SHAKE IT~
---------------------- JJ Tan H.O.W in the W.O.W ------------------------
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Tuesday, April 10, 2007
RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
BLEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
i'm here to just vent out my anger, i'm really fuming!!! ahhhhh!
~ARGH~
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Monday, April 09, 2007
HEY!
yo, i felt so tired today! i don't know why and i kept shouting "my eyes can't open" during PC. ha ha, so funny. we had like 10 to 15 mins of free time so i read a storybook and fell asleep half way. ha ha, my friends were all trying to wake me up for chinese. ha ha, so funny.
well i'm not sure what is taking away my drive to work hard and my passion ? yeh, everything to me seems like a chore and i am dragging myself each day to finish all the chores. rahhh, what's happening? i thought i always like to do it ? Now i seem to be disliking it and blaming it for every single mistake i make. i'm always getting scoldings and getting pick on because of that and i don't like it. What's the point of working so hard if i always end up getting negative remarks that cause me to feel upset? rahhh- i can't put my feelings into words, its just something that is choking me but i just can't describe it. I don't even know what is the cause of it. ok i don't think i can continue anymore, i don't even know what to say.
~what's wrong~
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Sunday, April 08, 2007
HELLO!
yo yo yo, i'm so happy, i ran from kc canal all the way to bedok reservoir park on good friday! how cool is that man! ha ha, i feel so satisfied! i think i'm such a sports cum dance cum arcade fanatic! wow wow wow, i feel so relax and stress-free when i'm doing all these. ha ha, i just went to the arcade just now, so fun! ha ha, i feel so slack, oh no! ok ok have to buck up! go go go! ha ha.
yes yes, thanks to TAY WEI ZHEN, my new gossiper cum protector cum spy? ha ha, yeh oh and to you-know-who, i already have one more protector, go find one more for yourself in case we can't protect each other. ha ha. yeh and this tay wei wei ah keeps claiming that i'm trying to steal her "girlfriend" away! ha ha, hello i'm straight ok! ha ha, yes i know you are too lah, but sometimes.... ha ha, jk jk. yeh, its fun being with wei wei, and i'm happy that it is so. wei wei, rest assured that your gf will still be with you, it will not be stolen away. ha ha.oh and sorry to pris for accidentally hitting you with the pen. ha ha, all thanks to wei wei lah, ha ha. oh my, so violent, aiyo. ha ha.
i think i'm starting to enjoy the times i spend with 4/4! ha ha, that's a good thing, ha ha, i enjoy the times when i "suffer from depression", laugh at Li Jia'a stupidity, making fun of people, being playful and the list goes on. ha ha, i wanna thank all those who made me smile everyday. yeh, ha ha, from class to science practical to PE, everything i do with 4/4 is so fun. ha ha, glad that i'm starting to like my class! yay, thank you 4/4.
thanks to my bestfriend, i'm glad i talked to you on the bus, i hope things will be better! All the best for your tournaments!. Just wanna let you know, I really treasure the friendship we are having right now!
i feel so happy nowadays, that's a good sign. ha ha, i feel so sporty now. i love to exercise, makes me happy! ha ha, yeh i think i better start studying, i've always been saying that, but i never ever start. so i shall start!!! ok i better go buy all the easter goodies tmr so that i'll be in time for monday!
~I'm Back~
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Monday, April 02, 2007
Hi i'm here and i'm going off NOW!
Today is a bad day, that's all i can say!
~bring me back~
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