~ Dolphins of the Deep Blue ~

Sunday, June 17, 2007

BOO!

Is there a person who is insignificantly significant to you? If that's a yes, then you probably will understand how i feel.

So maybe,
- you just knew that the person likes the same thing as you and does the same thing you like when the person is younger. you only knew that recently and you felt guilty but a sense of closeness.
- you just knew that the person feels lonely at times and hopes that you will be there but you don't even bother to make time for that person, maybe you do but you always dread it.
- you suddenly remember the days you spend together with the person when you were younger and you hope to go back to the past but you know it will never happen. as a result, you feel sad.
- you hope to do something for the person, but you always delay and in the end you just can't be bothered to do it and you just give up. you never once think that it may be too late when you finally want to do something for that person.
- you take that person for granted and you always get influenced and you even started to dislike the person, but everytime when you see that person, you regret feeling that way.
- you forget the person's birthday and you only remembered it the day after. you felt guilty but didn't even call back to ask about the person.
- you suddenly felt that there is nothing to say between the two of you. you feel the awkward silence and you realised that you have to think very hard just to come out with a conversation.
- you want the person to know more about you, but you just can't seem to be able to say out your problems. you suddenly feel that the only way is just to say all the positive things about yourself.
- you feel sad whenever you discuss about the past with that person, the memories that the two of you share are happy, but its the fact that it may not happen again that make you feel sad.
- you realised that you can't crack anymore jokes when you see that person, because it doesn't come out naturally anymore.
- you took a good look at the person's recent photo and you realised that it looked different already. you know that you have to cherish the time with the person but you just don't know how.
- you feel sad whenever you think of the past and you feel like telling that person, but its just so hard. you don't wanna cry infront of that person and so you just try to stop thinking.

Is that how you feel? well maybe. haha, let's talk about my childhood. haha, i remember i always go to the park and i will always cycle there. then i will always play at the playground, it will always be the monkey barre and the swing. i will always try to climb up by the sides of the door in my house and then call for help when i'm stuck. i love the feeling when i'm being lifted up by two people while we hold hands and walk back home after dinner. i always like to be fetched home and not by school bus. i remember always going to the arcade whenever i feel like it and i will spend a long time there. i remember playing basketball, but i couldn't shoot because i was too small. i remember the times i was on my scooter, riding it around the void deck. my mum didn't allow actually, but i just secretly ride it. i remember playing table tennis and always winding whenever i lose the game. haha. i remember being the messenger at home, running room to room just to send simple messagers. i remember going for computer lessons and all i do is just sit there and play games. haha. ok and many many more playful things. haha, so when i was young, i was very playful and naughty. haha, but naughty in the good way. haha, i am always so active and i would run around from place to place and playing all kinds of games i can find. my favourite place is the playground! i love the playground, because that's where i can show off my talent at swinging, balancing ....... yeh, my all time favourie food is curry! haha, and i always love the days when i get to eat my grandma's curry! haha

ok, so you can imagine how adorable i am when i'm young!!! haha, so active and playful! haha, so i guess i am like this now too? haha, yeh.

weeeeeeeee, cycling was so fun yesterday! haha, " eh eh this is zebra crossing!" "haiya whatever lah!" haha. so funny! the sky was so nive yesterday! it seems like the sea and the sky were fused together! haha, so misty but yet so soothing. i just love to stare at the sky, it makes me think. it gives me a sense of comfort and it makes me happy! haha, that's when i will form my cloud house or create my own cloud dance. haha, yeh. i truly think buddyhood is a nice word! haha, and its good to have a buddy.

~happy father's day~

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