~ Dolphins of the Deep Blue ~

Sunday, April 22, 2007

HEY

If only i'm a bird, i'll fly away from my sorrows. If only i'm a tree, i'll stay put forever, never leaving what i always treasured. If only i'm a cloud, i'll be able to cry when i wish to. If only i'm a key, i'll be able to unlock eveyone's heart. If only i'm a mountain, i'll be so strong that i can go through any difficulties. If only i'm a baby kangaroo, i'll always be able to stick to my mum. If only i'm a drop of tear, i'll be able to disappear as quick as i can. If only i'm a teddy bear, i'll be able to be cuddled and loved by every single soul. If only i'm a blanket, i'll be able to make others feel warm. If only i'm the sun, i'll be bright and happy everyday. If only i'm a basketball. i'll be able to score that goal that i want. If only i'm who i am before, i'll be much simpler and happier.
Sometimes its hard not to live in denial, the more you deny the more you lie to yourself, sometimes will make you feel a little happier. but, it will only be for that split second. What have i done to my life for me to feel this way? What have i done to make things become worse? What have i done to cause all the problems i face? I have so much unanswered question to ask. I never once did something to make myself or the people around me proud of. I never once stop to think about others, even though i thought i did. I just felt like crying, i don't know why. I guess i have lost the bubbly and cheerful me. I miss my grandma, even though she passed away a long time ago. I miss the times i talk and laugh with my mum, i miss the times when i was with snormpitle, i miss so many things. I feel like going for a run, run and feel the wind blow away my stress, my sorrows, my troubles, my fears and leave me only with happiness. What more, that's what we all are pursuing for. Ballet, my passion, i hope i can always dance. that's the time when i can really free my mind and dance my heart out. I love space, if only a have I big wide space under the sun, i'll dance to an endless song. I like to gaze and admire the blue sky. i will so comforted everytime i am alone looking at the sky. I love myself, but i hate what i've done to change myself. I hope to be as innocent again, I hope to be the real me, I hope I hope I hope.

~If only...~

----------------- JJ Tan H.O.W in the W.O.W ------------------

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