Sunday, February 04, 2007
AHHH!
bad day today, argh~ morning had board meeting which is ... then was the macs incident which i shall not elaborate. teaching was bleah and i didn't get to dance at all today! hai, new class and they were all so quiet, but at least better than the DT. yeh, then went home so that i can prepare to go to airport to send alaina off. guess it was a wrong choice, hai, don't know what is wrong with my mum lah, she suddenly scold me for wanting to send alaina off. For goodness sake, she going back to KOREA and she may not come back to Singapore! ahhh, the scold and listen session. rahhhh, but in the end she allowed me to go. i don't know, i think she contradicting herself lah. Then i was so angry that i took the bus to airport from the wrong side and i ended in raffles city! wow. so i quickly rush to the nearest mrt and took train. luckily i reached the airport just in time to say goodbye to alaina. so sad, i miss her so much, i miss the wonderful memories we had with her during the hols! ahhhh, cried buckets lah, then when home. i feel so crappy today, ahhhh. I'm so sorry to all of you, i didn't mean to not join you all, i really didn't mean to, please don't get angry with me! i was really shock when i see you all, because i thought it was in school! ahhhh, please don't think that i am neglecting all of you, i don't wanna be out of the group too! Its all coincidental! aiya whatever the spelling is lah. i'm really really sorry. ok and to the three of you too, i'm so so so sorry, because of me you all were affected. hai, sometimes i think the real trouble maker is me! hai, i feel so sad and lousy today, i guess my self esteem is getting lower and lower. HELP! hai, right now i want to be alone, just lie down on my bed and reflect. am i a nice person? no. am i a considerate person? no. am i a lousy person? yes. am i a failure? yes.
argh~ i'm really disappointed with myself, i screwed up so many things, especially teaching, sometimes i really feel like giving up. i'm very tired, tired of everything, i just wanna let go and not do anything. where has my happiness gone to? where is the real me?
~I love myself~
---------------- JJ Tan H.O.W in the W.O.W------------------
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